UNEXPECTED

A few hours spent together
Led to more texts, more calls
And more hours
It's amazing what a little bit of
Attention and affection can do
I think it over through and through
I'm slowly falling
... so into you

I can't help it anymore
I think of all that's happened
Who knew
In days numbered as few
I'd end up
Thinking of you

I'd like to take a trip back in time
And another to find myself on your mind
I listen out for your voice, it guides me
As you follow the beat in my dance step to find me
I still hear your heartbeat
Feel your gaze upon my forehead
The rise and fall of my arm strapped across your chest
A harmless jolt in the small of my back, which you caress

I wish it would go on and on, last forever
Alas, the unexpected does not always become reality however.




No more, No less.
Another one from my vault (as a few others on the blog now - my purple notebook). Since I have posted it, I now have the courage to do this one as a spoken word piece for our Voices of Africa event. ( If I get someone to record it I just may put it up..hahaha!)

A Piece of ME via 'Stoetry'

When everything seems to be going wrong

Don't give up

Everything happens for a reason

Bad things too have their season

When the world is against me

Me and MY ALL go right back against it

God leads me through the arid deserts of Dripokets

and rescues me from the Fangs of the BOA

When I meet those forks in the road

Or major intersections and spaghetti loops

With highway signs that can't be cracked

Traffic lights that do not work

And all police on a donut run or coffee break

He leads me along the path He destined for me

And puts me on his preprogrammed cruise control

With the necessary shock absorbers and brakes

For when I tend to make my own turns

When I'm troubled by thoughts-

Oh there are so many

His still small voice helps me move on

Forgive and Forget, He tells me to let go

So I do, but forget - how to, I don't know

(I'm still trying though)

As my daddy always says, Life is not fair

Yet I think of all I have been blessed with

I should not complain

I am ever grateful for family and real friends

The known and unknown guardian angels

Those who support, advise, encourage, motivate and inspire

Me to be ME, and not to please another

Me to be ME, and respect and love me the way I am

and  the values for which I stand

Me to be ME, to make a positive impact in the world

no matter how small

Me to be ME, and to be the best that I can be.

So this was quite an interesting piece in its formation, kind of a story I tried to tell as a poem but did not really fit in verse form (as I was trying to). I like to call this ... Stoetry, one of my many forms of expression since I don't have to be limited to set paragraphs or iambic pentameter. boundaries unlimited - that's the way I do me best!

This is to God without whom I would not be where I am today and to all those who have contributed to my life and being, positively and negatively (we've got to learn from mistakes right?)

BE YOU! So Help us all God. Amen!

Don't Know What You've Got Till It's Gone...

I've given you my all
At least all that I can give you 
Yet it seems

It's too much to return mine or actually call
I'm not trying to hold a therapy session
Though due to gradual loss of your attention
I may sign up anonymously for my depression

Or too tedious to write on my wall
Yet my news feed is filled with your posts
On others' walls - Is mine not pretty enough?
Do I ever cross your mind or am I now a joke?

I guess you also don't receive my texts
Yes my texts, e-mails, voicemails - what next?

Well - here, I sit, all of me
Wishing you would think of me
My big heart has taken enough
And some people have been cut off

Yet to those who once were so real
I ask one last time, Appreciate Me
Ingrates and Opportunists, our time is done
You truly never know what you've got till it's gone



So I was bored on the train to Worcester yesterday- no book (what was wrong with me?), I was lucky I had a sheet of paper and a pencil and this is what was on my mind then so this is what came out.
I do hate being disappointed and hurt and try so hard to be a REAL true friend yet... ah well. it's all a learning process I guess.

As my friend advised me in a skype chat, 'You need to balance your books and get the toxic assets off before you go bankrupt. Some "friends" are drive-thru friends - identify them and tell them to place their order quickly - and tell them not to run you over in the process'

Soundtrack for this piece: I love this song and this version it was almost always on the Atlantis FM Morning show back home
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FdLEdkiXm9c&feature=related  ( I don't know what movie it was in - sorry I'm not a movie guru) 

If you don't know what we've got (some sort of relationship with me or that you have with someone/some people) and all that comes with it, One day I may hop up into a big yellow taxi out of our relationship just to make sure I don't get run over and note it will be a one way trip too. Don't trade our paradise for a parking lot. the end.lol

CONTACT

Sometimes...
You make me so MAD
Not hearing from you hurts so bad
But the anger cannot last
...not for long...

Because...
Though you're far away
I feel your warmth in the sunshine
I hear your voice as I walk down the street
thinking...reminiscing..daydreaming perhaps
The gentle breeze wraps itself around me
Delivering your hugs from afar
Each rain drop brings your kiss
to my cheeks, forehead and nose
Subtly, I hear your heartbeat so strong
In rhythm with music of every kind

- As nightfalls
Though your warmth fades with the sunset
I feel your gaze as I look up
To the twinkle of your eyes in the stars
Seeing people race home to the ones they love
makes me want to run so far and so fast to you
Over hills, along highways, through fords
Or await your arrival daily
Till you eventually do
As I expect of you
But in the mean time, these will suffice
whilst I await your body,mind and soul to CONTACT

Why is it so difficult for the people you really care about to keep in touch? Then the ones you don't want to hear from know how to call, text, fcbk msg,wall post or poke you. mtchew.
Communication is a two way thing just like respect. People need to stop being opportunists and look for me only when they need something or else they will be put in 'my bad book' You don't want to be there..just saying.lol

signed The Ambassador