Disbelief. Shock. Pain. A tightness in my chest. Heartache. Confusion.
I refuse to accept
My vision is blurred
My eyes are clouded
These tears refuse to fall
I wish I could bury my sorrows and hurt so deep
Into those dimples I will never see again
I wish I could dial your number and for once
Have you actually pick up and shout BUSTAF
For me to respond BIZZAI
From the days we called out Arise and Shine
To TOK, English with JBA, ISA and HGIC Drama
There was always something special about you
Never a dull moment around you
Your smile lit us up - from mischief and genuine joy
Your call and service, We need to PUSH
Your game on the tennis and b-ball court
And your swearing too
Your smooth raps from My Boo to 'breaking into a cold sweat'
That Harlem Shake and your moves on the dance floor
Boys Boys.. Dark Knights... SO SEDUCTIVE!
Yi Yi Yi Yi Yi... SSHHHIIIIIIIIIII...!!!
Whatchu gon' do? Whatchu gon' say...?
Really, we all don't know what to do or say
It's too much to swallow or begin to fathom
It's too painful to accept or try to believe
I want someone to wake me up from this nightmare
For this heartbreaking news, I too want to be a 'Doubting Judas'
I wish I had hugged and squeezed you harder
And danced with you longer
(especially this past Thanksgiving)
Allowed you to tease and annoy me
Pull my chin and make me laugh even more
If we could buy you back, you would be here right now
If time machines existed, we would have changed history
If Drama were real, as Stage Manager I'd scream (like Aunty Grace)
AGATARATA shake yourself back to life
The memories are too many
But that makes it better
You're alive in each and everyone of us
Thanks to the times shared and spent
We will continue to PUSH
We will pull ourselves together and be strong for you
We will try to find the good in others as you would
We will smile and care for others like you
We will love as you loved and continue to do so from above
Nana Kwasi Abeyie Baffour-Awuah
Wo a wobeyie, Da yie
(You who came well, Rest well)
God gives and God takes. His ways are definitely not our ways and when certain things happen and we find ourselves asking why, we must remember that in all things, In ALL Things, we must give thanks (Pastor Lorraine started Sunday's sermon repeating that phrase so many times, I felt God was talking to me at church specifically)
During Praise and worship the tears that fell were not just because I was moved, they fell for you Nabby, they fell because I was crying out to God asking why. She also said to Thank the Lord and know that we are not in this alone. She said in 2011, some of us would go through hard times and boy was she right, because then I was torn up inside and kind of still am. After reading Luke 9: 28-36, she let us know that in the hard times we can't take everyone along but we will definitely need a Peter, James and John who we can count on to be with us through the thick and thin.
You, Nabby, were a Peter, James or John to many and I thank God for using you to impact so many lives.
I am grateful that I knew a great soul like yours and am proud to have had you as a friend and know you are watching over us all from above (with Yvonne. Don't worry her ooh. Just watch over us)
2nd Corinthians 4: 7- 18 & 5:1-8
4 v11,14&16
For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus' sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh ... knowing that He who raised up the Lord Jesus will also raise us up with Jesus and will present us with you. Therefore we do not lose heart, even if our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day
5 v1, 6-8
For we know that if our earthly house, this tent is destroyed, we have a building from God, a house not made with hands, eternal in the heavens
So we are always confident, knowing that while we are at home in the body we are absent from the Lord
For we walk by faith, not by sight
We are confident, yes well pleased rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord'
May the blood of Jesus which gives us strength from day to day, soothes our doubts and calms our fear and never loses its power comfort and console us all.
You served your purpose even though we know you had so much more to offer this world. We are confident and pleased that you are in the bosom of the Lord now. We will definitely meet again.
If you were a Scout, then I hope you remember Mr Marbell singing ' Oh Cheerio, we shall meet again!'
The memories are endless. I could go on days and days sharing them
Form Morning Star I don't have too many because you were a class ahead of me but I know you and your family squad (the Baffour-Awuahs and Akollor-Mensahs) rolled deep, and your homies too. That smile and those dimples stood out from then and will forever be remembered. You used to come by MSS sometimes though even though you were at SOS JSS then.
Next time I remember speaking to you was at the interview - You, Maame, Jermo, BF and the rest of the Tema Squad making chaw noise plus your LAFA. oh I would love to hear it again. Youknowwha'I'msayin' then you entered my life again and have been a great friend and brother ever since.
*You spitting on Friday nights in the Dhall in IG1 with Bampoh, BP, Bobse, etc
*Teasing me endlessly, always on my case (like you were on everyone else, teasing and laughing at them)
*HGIC Jams - That Harlem Shake of yours and the one time you brought a flashlight and put your hand under your shirt as you always did and then put it on (some special effects kraaa)
*Class Trips - jamming on the bus, IG1 Outdoor orientation, English trip to those beaches, IB1 Outdoor Orientation, TOK Trip - Cozy Ridge (Nana Owosompa, the Jam), Chemistry trip, IB2 to Anomabo and the fun there
*ISA - that was a great summer, the Girls' Common room chilling and movie nights, You and Dosoo staying in Niger and the security guard that came and said he heard some male voices and how Helen blasted him and threatened to report him to Mrs Nkrumah, Mr Ofei and Mr Ahiable,
Watching the world cup and trying to calm you down and prevent you from breaking anything
The letters and going over to scare Yvonne that she has a letter and that the US is denying Ghanaians visas because we won.
Kenkey at Maame's house
*Medicine For Love - How JBA and Mrs Brew Appiah blasted us, Xu ordering G into the box and making you and Nana, I think, carry the box to the stage. AGATARAAAAATTAAAAA!!! Sexy juju man with a harlem shake that no one could challenge. Walking back late from practice
You were a great actor in the other school plays too!
*TOK class - more fooling plus you , nakos, pddrrrr, yvonne, sophie, helen, twumie, agyingo, hutchful, moses, timothy, chuks
*PHLEERROOO
* B-ball and Tennis Court - IG how you shouted about some video game (the morning after one games' night) in the Boys Common room and Mr Djan came to barb me, you, pichon and nana.lol
After some interhostel athletics/sports in IB2, I think you missed a layup or something, instantly you fell to the ground and rolled all over the court swearing and clutching your ankle and we were just laughing so hard - Drama King.
Playing tennis with you guys was always fun! The balls going over the fence into that gutter all the time.
*Chilling around the tuck shop (in its various location to which it has moved, around Bra Albert buying Khebab, chilling at that water fountain statue aka Joseph
*Chilling at my house with the boys, Aki and Yoyo. the sandwiches and snacks, my parents driving you boys all to drop you off at G's place. My mum's car had you, me, BF, Philip Akollor, and you telling my mother lies about going to move into the agricultural sector and start a farm with BF and more. Chale the fufu you never came back...
*Peter's house, 1st IB exeat, the kenkey, wrestling games in the pool and more.
*G's house - at least every summer there was a get together. didn't you also break a glass vase/table or something some other time too.lol
*CAS - especially Saturday CAS at the Village always making the children laugh, Drama, Aklamador (that video of ppl bedding on the bus we showed at IB1 night lol)
*December 17th - You, Dosoo and Baaba's birthday. More get togethers at Dosoo's house for cho and chillaxing.
*Mr Ofei walking in on you with your shirt open in the Girls' Common room and how another rule was created.lol
*We need to PUSH - SRC was jeh with you! those once in a while Sunday meetings lol
*Chilling at the poolside and gym in HGIC
*Pulling people's chins
*Palaver hut jams
*French orals - Un palaver hut! I can't undeerrrstaaaaanndd (Oh Monsieur Zafoe)
*Back of the library always chatting, fooling, laughing at others who got kicked out of the library, worrying Mrs Agyare, Ms Ntem, Exornam, Mr Pels,
*English A1 SL class with JBA (I want to hug and hold her so bad and tell her we are there for her), how 'mummy (mrs.)baffour-awuah' used to blast us all the time that we are wearing blue shirts for nothing or that we should take one word and think! How we used to chook each other for all sorts of things in that class. that was my best class in IB!
*chilling at the back of the dhall, watching MLB games sitting on the wall by the court, that truth or dare and story telling that stated outside the dhall and ended up inside then when Anthony was dared to kiss Mebale.
'Doubting Judas, John 10:30 and Jesus wept'.. the conversations and topics too many to discuss them all
*The story of you playing basketball under some palaver hut not in your hostel after lights out with Boys Boys and running back to your room and using the excuse that you had been stroffing with them and as soon as Mr Gyampo ran into you at your door as soon as you got there, you said were so scared that you broke into a cold sweat.
*You and your many loves.. aka My boo
*Getting annoyed at a lot of the nonsense we went through in HGIC, and the rules..ooh these Rules (we have suffered some paaaa)
*Chatting - on the phone, msn those days, in person, GH, yankee
*Facebook comments and battles, name calling and fights
*Dark Knights singing at National Day in HGIC all reading lyrics off Dosoo's Palm (I think)
*The walk to school - boys boys! Dark Knights, getting to assembly and you all sitting together, walking around the circle that night after your meeting in Limpopo - those boys were Your Peter James and John, as you were to them as well.
*Titan Kenkey party on the boys side
*6th March esp IG2 and IB2 (the gyama, the palaver hut jams and the drama)
*Illegals, boning and browning (and the rule that if 3 Dark Knights were there then it was okay)
*Browning me on my birthday in IG1 (the way I waited for you and BF with Philip. I even told Afriyie and we expected you the whole day)
*Rushing for computers in the hostel lab ( HAHAHHAHHAHA! ei we have gone through things paaa)
*That thing you used to do - placing your thumb by your nose and on your upper lip and pushing your head to the side a bit, then wink or lick your lips. HAHAHAH! You dey feel your body pass! Always giving sexy poses - Peter's house one of his last get togethers before we came to college, you came back in to Accra with me saf. I have a pic from speech day IG1 saf of you, Pichon, Akos, Yoyo and BF - you've crossed your arm and leaned back small and tilted your head up with some eyes kraaa and a look that says 'I'm the ish' lol you wish papa!!!
*College application time in the computer lab, library oh all for yankee!!!
*MUN - Lincoln, GIS, SOS
*IB1 Basketball game against Lincoln when during half time we didn't biz their cheerleaders and you were practicing free throws and layups and we were flowing you, and then they said you had to stop by force. LOL. That was one helluva game. You guys destroyed them even with all their cheating.
*Punishment from Prep in IG1
*Kenkey at BF's house with Tomefa, Nat (okay I just realize as HGIC students we chopped Kenkey a lot for hostel parties and when we gathered if it wasn't at Peter's and there was Aunty Mary's jollof)
*Trying to 'chook' Naki to her mother about Clement (Tiwtiw) you did aaaaah you brought him under the palaver hut and did some introduction.
*Shouting out 'Bottucks' with your boys when you saw certain seniors
*Your sayings - Whatchu gon' do? Whatchu gon' say .. You know how we do..SSHIIIIIIIIII....
My Boo, We need to PUSH, or answering all questions 'And Why Not?' (I'm not sure who started that thing)
Or you always screaming 'I can do eeeett' or 'Under Breessssure',
*Your names - Nabby, Gorfish , BIZZAI - B to the I to the Zigizig AI!
*The story of you boys and your massages and always browning each other or helping another out
*You always lovingly trying to play or scare the children in HGIC, I remember you worrying Abena (Mrs. Mensahs daughter) one day and then she blasted you in French in the pool, Always holding Mrs. Martei's grandkids Sena and Sedinam (or was it Sedina), to trying to scare Mr Ahiable's son, Aunty May's girls Tia and Kukie.
*How much you loved your family especially your mum JBA and all you cared for
*This past Thanksgiving - you and Dean fooling to the max, chilling with Rah, Maame, Ju, Sharmaine, Nathan, Sebe, taking a pic by force with Marian, meeting your boo Katy, just talking and catching up, fooling, dancing esp us dougie-ing. I have a few videos on my phone but the lighting was bad. It was a great time even though we got on some wrong train cause of change of service for late nights and I didn't get home till 3 am.lol. Had I known my cousins thought I had decided to sleep over I would have stayed even longer...
There are many more, so many more, but I'll stop here. (after I went and added more to the stories when I initially thought I was done more memories came. lol)
I bet loads of people have others to share, some I have heard others I haven't. Some are stories they can share better than I can ...
You're still here in my heart and forever will be
Love, ME!
Abena aka Bustaf
