Lost & Found

Just like the waves

You push and pull me back

The things you do

Toss me around

The things you say

Whirl around unsettled in my head

Like any load borne by water.

Like the rise and fall of the crest of the waves

Your affection rises and washes over my shores

As quickly as it ebbs and leaves me high and dry

Sometimes the current is too strong

I have no control as you send me plunging deep

From the sun kissed surface

To the mysterious, cold, murky dark depths

Where I am lost

Lost in you

Lost in thought

Lost in me

Lost in lust

Lost in ways I can’t describe

Lost, without you I might die

Lost. Simply Lost.

Just as the crests of these emotions plunges to its bottom

The trough between them brings me back from the deep

The wave cycle repeated itself for lengths of time

Yet this time,

I begin to regain my senses as I rise

The mystifying waters get clearer

The pressure lessens

And probably the feelings too

I feel the sun

It’s always good to be brought up to the light

I see it all now

The confusion and hurt settled deep down below

I fought the waves that tried to take me back

I found myself strong

I found myself moving along

I found myself far in on the shore

To be tossed and turned no more.

Well yah long story short. You know when you have those hunches and you find out ( I have too many of those. ah well)  It hurts BAD. But I expected it so, that's a load I can forget about now. You win some, you lose some. LOL. Never settle for 2nd best.

Piece inspired by friend and self.

Another friend had this quote on facebook yesterday which was so apt - "We're always looking for keys to open OLD doors, thus leaving our NEW doors shut." Very few doors have been old and new at the same time, but this one has and will always be loved so I'll be that great friend and be happy.

ps From ODB for July 5,2011 He Calls Me Friend http://odb.org/2011/07/05/he-calls-me-friend/

Someone has defined friendship as "knowing the heart of another and sharing one's heart with another. We share our hearts with those we trust, and those who care about us. We confide in our friends because we have confidence that they will use the information to help us,not harm us. They in turn confide in us for the same reason' 

Yet it seems like I got some "friends" who are two faced should I say. Time will surely tell.

So some sad love songs to accompany this piece ..aaawwwww. hahaha!

Tank   'I Can't Make You Love Me' - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NXnhWthZ_k4

Kojo Antwi   'Nfa Me Nko Ho' - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h79Wxk7A6Yg

Tamia   'Almost' - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HpmvcAE5PlE

Alicia Keys   'Love is like the Sea' - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A2ASbb8bjjQ (ps I saw her in concert February 22,2010 with another great friend. AMAZING is an understatement)